Spark

When did I lose it? My spark, my creativity? As of late, I’ve felt backed into a corner, stuck — though let’s be honest, it’s been a few years now, on and off this roller coaster ride of tepid emotions. Is it my stagnant career, my gradually declining interest towards my once beloved hobbies, the political climate, climate change? It’s 2025, April, no less – five years after the world turned on its side and we entered a period of mass disarray, the global pandemic — and I fear I’ve yet to recover.

Fine, dramatics aside, I think it’s my career. I spend at least a third of my life at work, if not more, so it’s no surprise I’m burnt out. In this time of layoffs and a declining economy on the horizon, I sure picked a good time to start questioning my career choices. I’ve been working for the last eleven years at the same company – since I graduated university, without a break. The first half of my career, I chased passion, and genuine delight for innovation; this latter half…I couldn’t even tell you what I’m chasing down the next day — probably deliverables. My motivation and ambition are all but shot, what keeps me going is the  comfortable lifestyle my career buys — ample travel, the occasional extravagant purchase, and a roof over my head, albeit rented, but hey, there’s in-unit W/D. Suffice to say, I hate my job, love my life.

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